Life Without Structure

I struggle to deal with days of nothingness. I struggle when I see a blank calendar. I struggle without things to do. 

This is a tradeoff. This is a flaw. 

This is my bias. 

I prefer to always be doing. I get energy (as an extrovert) from being with other people.

I prefer making memories (good or bad) versus saving energy for a later date. 

I get more tired when I have nothing to do then when I have a full day of going. 

When I have nothing to do, I sometimes resort to bad / lazy habits. When I have a structured day ahead, I tend to reach peak productivity very quickly. I also have a lot more fun in the process. 

I like to be spontaneous, so I do not plan my days super far in advance. But when I wake up in the morning, I like to have things to look forward to. If I am not particularly excited about what I have going on during the day, I tend to sleep longer. I tend to be more sluggish. I am less likely to go to the gym. I am less likely to think creatively. 

So I try and make my days as "exciting" as possible - that way I wake up with energy and optimism rather than boredom and negativity.

On days with "stuff going on," I am a creator. On empty days, I am a consumer. 

I start every single morning writing and publishing a blog post. Some days' essays are "better" than others - but regardless, I get to simulate that feeling of accomplishment every morning.

This is a direct energy boost that I start every morning with. 

I have never had coffee or soda before. I do not really intake much caffeine. 

I get energy from doing and the people around me. 

Take away both of those - I tend to become lazy.