Lately, I have distracted myself. I do a lot of different things and help a lot of different people/companies. But where am I really getting? It starts with where do I want to go?
In part of exploring and becoming more aware of my own thoughts, interests, and affinities — I ask myself what I am doing and why I am doing that?
Because I have not had a specific enough answer to that question — besides “add value, learn, and get healthy” I have wandered and gotten distracted.
I do a lot of things that look like a lot of motion but do not bring me closer to anything. They lack a purpose.
It’s like I am going on a roller coaster or on a hike, up and down and up and down, only to return to the same spot.
You see, for most people life is a lot like that. You have ups and downs, but in the end you come right where you started.
It is easy to confuse motion with progress.
Especially when you see validation from others, you may think you are moving forward when in reality you are headed in a loop.
I want to end up somewhere else. To do that, I must more clearly define my purpose (work in progress), do things that really matter, and cut out bullshit.
It starts with asking myself the really hard questions that no one else is going to ask me…Like why the fuck am I writing everyday? Why am I in San Francisco? What do I want?
These are hard. Uncomfortable. Make people squeamish.
I will answer…just takes thoughts.